I’m Smiling On the Outside
August 6, 2017
I look at the smiling faces of my little people as I post their pics on a Facebook, and as their mom, only I know the depth of the joy, and also the struggles in each of them. I look in their eyes and I know…just like only you know your kids or those closest to you.
Life is interesting. I think the Lord allows us to simultaneously experience at times the darkest of nights and the highest of heights. This has always been an interesting paradox for me, but as I’ve grown in my faith, I’ve seen how He has shown me how to grieve something and stay present enough with life in the moment to rejoice and enjoy.
I got on the plane to come home from an incredible week in Prague – dreaming, growing, learning, serving – and just moments after the wheels were up, I lost it over something I’m carrying for one of my children (sorry person next to me on the plane). 😭 It’s in the still moments, when we hear Him beckoning us to come closer, that emotions overcome me as I sit in His presence and absorb all of the Life and Hope He has to offer.
In spite of such incredible things happening this year and even this week, this momma’s heart is deeply grieving and crying out to Jesus for His healing power to be evident. Because the Lord loves us dearly, He does not want us to be consumed and overcome by grief. So I know He gives us bright spots of new friends, hard work, successes, opportunities to love and serve, and most of all, His Presence to carry us through our “dark night of the soul.”
I made a promise to myself that I would never use Facebook as a place to vent and air things that are better kept to oneself. It’s not a platform to argue or create strife. It’s not a place to look for validation, self-promotion, or an ego-boost. I promised myself that while I would not use it to air all the “dirty laundry” so to speak, I also would never try to create the Facebook Fantasy life that so many of us unknowingly do. We hide the hard and ugly and only show the best of our highlight reel, so fearful that any sign of imperfection might cause us to lose “friends” or followers.
So while I have my issues and personal struggles with FB 🙅🏼 and striking that delicate balance between authenticity and mis-using it as platform to rant, and steering clear of the black hole of narcissism, I do believe it can be a place where people from all over the world can stay connected, to a degree, in each other’s lives – to celebrate wins and pray each other through losses and hard times.
So friends, I’m asking for your prayers today via FB 😏 – for God’s total and complete healing and restoration of one of my own. That He would do what He does best – save, heal, and deliver. We walk by faith and not by what we see. Lord knows if I walked by what I saw only, I would’ve given up a long time ago! 🙃
We never truly know what someone is going through behind the smiling pictures. Behind your smiling photographs so you have a heavy heart? Does anyone else need prayers, Hope, or encouragement today? Comment below and you have my word, I’ll be lifting you up in prayer today too. And if you so desire, feel free to mention what you’d like prayer for! 🙏🏻💗